In RetrospectI'm sorry.It shouldn't have been like that.I would say that next timewill be better,But there won't be a next time for usand I can't make promisesfor someone else.I know it wasn't suddenAnd I should havedone it sooner.But I kept hoping I was wrong.Kept saying to myself thatit was only a passing crushand we were forever.I've never been so off.I hope you find someone better,Someone to brighten your eyesWho won't be as oddand who won't care about the strangestfucking things.I wish that it had been betterAnd I hope that we can still talkBut I don't think it willEver be the same.Merry Christmas.I'm sorry.
Given AwayI would wish you luck,But I gave it to someoneWho needed it more.Walking down a busy streetA lady with a scar on her faceCatsup dripping from her handsAsked me for a smoke.Who am I to deny a bad habit?I gave it to herAnd continued on my way.Didn't realize until laterThat it was the bottom rightMy luck,My traditionLast one left."What are youupset about?""Tell you on the way home"She needed it more than I.
House of MirrorsSo many mirrors in this houseImpossible to walk by without catching a glimpse of myselfLay a hand to the face in the glassIs this really what I look like?Is this how I want to be seen?Eyes devoid of natural colourRinged in thick black paintThat song runs through my head againI don't want to be a fantasyOr a passing dreamLong black hair and a bright red clipWant to scrub this out, take it offThrow it at the wallI can't bring myself to do itThis is who I chose to beRemembering the bright and happy girlNow a shadow behind meThese shoes are scuffed and fadedTorn from running through the pastTurn around and face my fearI've found myself at lastIn the house of mirrors
HomeTrying to place a thing you can't describeTrying to Remember a place you've never beenA word unspokenA name ForgottenA memory that never happenedA face described but never seenA colour you've never touchedA falsification you once knewA list that goes on foreverWith a loneliness that lastsAnd feelings that don't last long enoughBut although you're aloneAt least you're where you chose to beYou've Never felt so at HOME
The Lucky One is FlippedSever the ties that bindLoose the chains unbrokenDetached from the Heart that BreaksLet them fall; out of sight out of mindPerceive what you will, the Horizon's not farThe show is over and the cast has gone home.So take your bow, take your leaveOr choose to stay in characterForget who you are, at least for the NightAlarm sounds, the dream is done.Wake up, back to the world you once knewOnly nothing is the same.Plagued with Realization, Infected with DistrustAnd in the back of your head IT is playing over and over like a coughing fit that won't stop.Your only hope lays in that last smokeLive in it, wallow in it, take another drag.Down to the filter, Down to the lowest of lowsAnd you can't seem to find the way back upAlone in the Dark, the Ember's light flickersAnd lights the way for you.Smoke floats forward, pulling you with itUp up up into that world of lies and greed and hatred and love and loss.Through the lies and greed and hatred, and loss and loveBack to som
Scaredy-CatIt feels so selfish
Look at us, it's like we were made for each otherAn odd twist of coincidence and fate,And here we are.I feel like I've known you forever.Don't take this the wrong way,I'm happier than I've been in years.I think it's the suddenness,An overwhelming speeding feelingAnd I worry that we're going too fast.I'm so scared
Terrified, if we're being honest.Afraid of crashing and burning and becomingAnother name in a box.